tonight i just finished the book LOVELY BONES, by alice sebold. and after reading it, i can't help but think that there was a reason that HE recommended the book to me. if you read it, you might guess what i'm eluding to.
in the time that i got to spend with jo, we bonded. we bonded so much that he didn't call me by name, he called me sis. when i got off of work, it was he and i who spent the most time together. i would walk up the stairs to his house, and knowing the sound of my heels, he would yell out "SISSS!!" with his arms already out to greet me with a hug. i loved how he came to me for advice or help regardless of how big or small the dilemma. whether it be about love or school, it was an honor to help this guy. he would call or text me at night needing help with a paper that he was finishing or just starting but was due the next day. and taking the "big sis" role, i would take over the computer and fix the syntax errors and lengthen sentances where i could. and i even helped him write a paper on Lovely Bones, even though i had yet to read the book. this was when he told me that i should read it. when his class was over, he was supposed to lend it to me for a good read. unfortunately, he was never given the chance to finish his class or any of the classes that enrolled in that year.
i finally got my hands on a copy of the book a couple of months ago, but i was still reading the alchemist, so this was next in my que. it's funny how i would start reading the book as this time of year has come upon us. but to me it just makes it so much more special. maybe he was willing for me to read it and i can feel him even more b/c he wants me to. you'd have to read the book to understand that last comment.
ok so if you don't know...i do have ghost/spirit encounters...i know you may think i'm weird or crazy but whatever they happen. when seeing the book, i would always think of Joel. but when reading it, i felt so much more. i felt like his spirit was there with me and after reading the book, i don't think i'm wrong.
he was sooo excited when i threw him what would be his last birthday party, his 18th. he was so thankful and happy in his new birthday shirt (a present he was reluctant to accept b/c he was a person that didn't want to intrude on anyone in any way, but i wouldn't take no for an answer and he seen that i made me happy buying it for him), he didn't even have to say a word, his demeanor and the smile in his eyes, said it all. but i sit here now as the thankful one. i'm grateful for having him bless my life, for me to know such a pure soul. he never wanted to dissappoint anyone and was never hateful. and although dissappointed at times, he was NEVER resentful. he has to be one of the most gentle and caring people i have ever met in my life. and i'm glad that i had a chance for him to bless my life. i am so thankful that he and i spent every day that we could together, and trust me it was almost everyday. his meer presence with his smile and laughter were enough to make my long and daunting day dissappear so much so i was energized when i seen him.
he is a person that left his mark with everyone that he met and will always be missed. Your big sis loves you brah!
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I know he appreciates this post. I know I do! And remember.... you'll always be his #1 on Myspace. That speaks volumes about how highly he regarded you. :) Dinner soon!
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